Learning to let go can be so hard for me. I have a friend who became a close friend so fast, but things have changed so quickly so suddenly. I don’t think I can point to one specific reason why, nor can I really point fingers as to how this happened (and I honestly don’t know if they feel the same way too). As I felt things starting to go sour (at least I felt this in my head) I confronted them multiple times, asking why they were acting cold, if they were upset with me, if I had done anything wrong, etc. Every time they would deny something was up and tell me they appreciated me for bringing it up. I would think “oh it’s all in my head, it’s because they started dating, it’s because our schedules are complete opposite…” but then to this day, I feel a strange sense of loss whenever we hang out again in group settings. We used to spend way too much time together, I would text/call them at any inconvenience, and I genuinely thought nothing could ever ruin this friendship. But I guess, like everything else in this world, friendship is temporary. Every time I see this person my heart truly does ache for what was and what could have been (wow this literally sounds like I dated this person or something lol). In all seriousness though I still love this person so dearly and I still consider them a friend, but I think it’s time for me to let go of the past. I have been feeling down about this person for quite some time now, and I’m realizing that I’ve really done all I can to keep this friendship what it was. I am not saying I only did good when it came to our friendship. I definitely clashed with them multiple times and we had our moments of tension. But I feel as though I have reached out enough to the point that their curt responses and excuses hurt less and less each time. I have learned that there is no reason to hold so tight to people who have let me go so quickly, so suddenly without a solid explanation. However, if they ever reach out and want to go back to the way things were I am always open arms. I really hope the best for you ❤ thnks fr th mmrs :)
