I just turned 23. It’s crazy to think that at this age my mom got married. I still feel, act, and think like such a child…
As I received happy birthday messages form loved ones, new friends, family members, classmates, etc., I couldn’t help but think about how much my social circle has changed over time. I used to get so sad about that — how hard it was to keep quality, long-lasting friendships. However, I think I’m slowly learning to let go. As we experience life and meet new people along the way, we can’t help but change so is it really wrong for the people we surround ourselves with to change?
Sometimes I really wish I were one of those people who so easily lives by “outta sight outta mind.” However, I often feel as though the people who have had any effect on my life have become a part of me and it is my duty to hold our friendship together — it is so hard for me to let go. At times this really does take a toll on me, especially when I feel as though I am putting more of an effort in a friendship than the other party — which I also think is totally unfair on my end to place these unrealistic expectations on others who are often very different from me personality-wise and in how they approach friendship.
Wow I am definitely overthinking and rambling on right now, but I hope you understand what I’m saying… So here are some goals for 23 LOL:
- Learn how to spell “definitely” without having to look it up every freakin’ time LOL
- JOURNAL MORE: I recently face-timed and caught up with an unnie and we both decided to make it a goal to journal our thought more especially during this quarantine — so honestly I’m writing this for you Sarah LOL
- PRAY PRAY PRAY: prayer really goes a long way. In the past, I definitely ;) was one of those people who doubted the power of prayer. Whenever I heard people post about how “thoughts and prayers” don’t get us anywhere I honestly had no response. I’ve learned over time that prayer is not for wishes to be granted and miracles to happen (although it is not wrong to pray for what is weighing on your heart, even if that does feel impossible). Prayer is ultimately asking God to open your eyes and heart to change. God uses prayer to change how you see situations not necessarily to change the situation you are in.
- Healthier lifestyle — my half marathon got moved to October so yeah God gave me a second chance so I actually have to prepare now lol
- Learn to let go — letting go does not mean to stop loving! Letting go to me means to lay everything down at God’s feet and give Him full control of the situations that I am in/will face.
- Be kinder. To others, especially those who are so hard to love, and myself. ❤
- LEARN BASIC LIFE SKILLS: time management, money management, cooking, etc.
